Lady Luck

So, I have been up for a really big promotion at work...I mean huge! It's so big that there is a very slim chance that I will get it. That doesn't mean that I am not trying for it, but it's a reach. That being said, I have felt indifferent about it really over the past few days. I really couldn't understand this until today it hit me. I don't want to use up any luck I have in getting this job! I really want to get pregnant, I feel like if I get the job, then I won't get pregnant...now there's a special kinda crazy!!